One of the most romanticized concepts you encounter in your early 20s is the concept about finding your purpose. People reduce this excruciating time to this beautiful experience filled with constant enlightenment.
While that may be true ...like 15 years later when you reflect on it. The reality is that finding your purpose is never ending , scary , painful , hard and frustrating. There are beautiful moments but there are a lot of wrong paths you travel down before you finally reach your "path". Alot of relationships are lost. Alot of failures occur, Alot of tears are cried , blood shed , self doubt and setbacks occur.
To be as authentic as possible. I will say that for me. This journey has been quite the roller coaster. I've gone down some wrong paths trying to fit the mold. Trying to live my life for the validation of others, I tried to live up to what society defines as success . But when I began to define success for myself I was at peace. When I stopped caring about meeting people's expectations but tried to exceed my own , I was whole. When I learned to please GOD first and then myself SECOND suddenly life wasn't as difficult as I had made it . Finding your path is not romantic. And I have come to believe that finding your purpose is a life long journey that will occur up until your depart this earth .
But I have learned a lot. I have learned that no matter how much you plan your life. You do not know the future. The only thing you can do is work hard , take time to smell the roses , make yourself happy and just try to trust that in every step you make itll workout. And more importantly its ok to not have it figured out.
I am content . Some days are hard. Some falls are harder than others. But in everything I do I have expectancy that it will be worth it. It sucks , the journey but one day it will be so worth it.
TA TA ,
Happily Heartless
Acknowledgements : To DXB my muse since 7 years of age . In all of your endeavors I wish you much joy and success. Not all beautiful things last forever . But man was it beautiful. To my friends from all walks of life from all parts of this earth I love yall ! To my mother , my rock you are the beginning in the end . To myself , just keep swimming .
