Just Breathe

There has jut been so much death going on around me lately. I'm constantly reminded that one minute you are here and then poof you're gone just like that. It's a scary realization honestly. For most people a wake up call is in order so you start living differently. But , why is it that it takes someone dying for us to realize the importance of every moment.

I've just been a nervous wreck honestly. And through it all I hear God saying " Relax my child , just breathe". But everything is closing around me and I feel like I can't breathe. My heart is pounding. The pressure to fulfill my destiny is a weight on me. I don't want to run out of time. But I know I have to breathe. I know I can't sweat the small stuff . I know I have to let go.  But

1. I'm trying I get right spiritually. Trust God is a big task but I'm trying. I'm praying more than usual but not as often as I should.

2. I'm fat as hell. Lol , I need to be Naomi Campbell before I leave this earth. This is a little shallow but hey I am human.

3. My relationship status is a mess mess mess mess. I won't even go into that.

4. I have so many years of school left. I just want to be sure I'm going the right way. Don't want to waste anyone's time or money.

I know what I need to do. Just breathe. Just live. But it's easier said than done guys. There are days when you can just do it. Then there are days when you're heart is heavy and you're mind is spinning and not even therapy or gospel music can calm you.

I'll try to keep it together y'all.

Ta Ta ,
Happily Heartless